My six-year-old son and I went walking through the woods at Windrock. The snow was
worn and patchy, but still we could see where a meadow vole had
tunneled its now roofless passage, and where something else had shucked
and piled a midden of pine cone
seeds. Elias asked if I could let him know if I saw any wintergreen to
chew. With full knowledge of the plant and how to identify it, my
son has taken to heart the parental admonition that foraging always
requires prior approval. He remembered its striped relative as well,
that my mother calls pipsissewa, and the spot in the woods where we
once heard the owl.
I am teaching my children to read the
landscape, to navigate their childhood wilderness. I am sharing the
place based wisdom and woods lore of my tribe. I am reconfirming my
own connection to a piece of ground as central to my being as any on
Earth, to those I have loved who loved this place, and those people we
were when we, too, were young.
I have lived long enough to have decades of place memory, tracking changes through the years in the trees, shore and sea at the head of Buzzards Bay. I notice the dusty rose drifts of slipper shells along the beach and wonder what great imbalance beneath the waters has produced this superabundance of a single species. I see the remnant pitch pines in a maturing white pine forest, clinging to closing pieces of canopy. I believe it has been thirty years or more since this land supported wood cock or bobwhite quail. Another great gale could reset the clock of succession, as indeed the cups and pillows of tip up mounds in the sandy forest floor can attest. Other changes may well be irreversible, like the slowly rising waters of the Bay that overtop the breakwater at high tide as they never did in my youth.
They
are curious children: my dark eyed daughter of nine years a feminist
since birth, and my blond, freckled son who first learns the rules and
then improvises his own theme. Emily loves to orchestrate, and
marinates in words. Elias has a pitch perfect ear and an imagination
to match his big sister's. They are boon companions, saplings seeking
light. Emily is a beech, her generous limbs bending low for climbing.
Elias is a maple, with pinwheeling seeds and inner sweetness. Are they
also, like beeches, survivors of permanent scars? Will someone core
them to distill that sugar? And can I who sired them ever prune their
wind damaged branches, or trust that they have landed on good soil and
can find their way despite what I know and do? Fore and hindsight
intertwine when we walk through these woods, and wheels turn within
wheels.
The best that I am, and the best I have to give to these I love above all, is this grounding to carry them forward. To dissipate the charge and let the jolts pass through without consuming them. To sustain their sense of wonder and connection. And yet, what comes from them, as Lincoln knew so well, is"far above our poor power to add or detract."
On a subsequent walk by the windswept shore, my children ranged ahead of me, quartering like hounds on the scent of fresh discoveries. They stopped, and Elias called out; "Dad! We've found a story!" Then he added; "Emily thinks it's kind of gross, but I think maybe it isn't." He then explained to me the mess of breast feathers and bloody cavity of mourning dove they had found. "Something came walking along here, Dad, and it found a bird, and ate it." They had indeed found a story, and one we are forever retelling. I cannot improve upon this. I can only love and let live.
I have lived long enough to have decades of place memory, tracking changes through the years in the trees, shore and sea at the head of Buzzards Bay. I notice the dusty rose drifts of slipper shells along the beach and wonder what great imbalance beneath the waters has produced this superabundance of a single species. I see the remnant pitch pines in a maturing white pine forest, clinging to closing pieces of canopy. I believe it has been thirty years or more since this land supported wood cock or bobwhite quail. Another great gale could reset the clock of succession, as indeed the cups and pillows of tip up mounds in the sandy forest floor can attest. Other changes may well be irreversible, like the slowly rising waters of the Bay that overtop the breakwater at high tide as they never did in my youth.
The best that I am, and the best I have to give to these I love above all, is this grounding to carry them forward. To dissipate the charge and let the jolts pass through without consuming them. To sustain their sense of wonder and connection. And yet, what comes from them, as Lincoln knew so well, is"far above our poor power to add or detract."
On a subsequent walk by the windswept shore, my children ranged ahead of me, quartering like hounds on the scent of fresh discoveries. They stopped, and Elias called out; "Dad! We've found a story!" Then he added; "Emily thinks it's kind of gross, but I think maybe it isn't." He then explained to me the mess of breast feathers and bloody cavity of mourning dove they had found. "Something came walking along here, Dad, and it found a bird, and ate it." They had indeed found a story, and one we are forever retelling. I cannot improve upon this. I can only love and let live.
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